Change or failure? A pep talk to myself

Thoughts & Ramblings

Changing direction can feel like failure. You know, we’re taught to stick to things and not give up, to persist, to be consistent. Giving up is like admitting that the challenge has beaten you; that you’re not made of strong enough stuff.

So if I change my mind – if I stop persisting and give up to try something else – does that mean I’m not made of strong enough stuff? Is it the same as giving up?

This reaction emerged when I sat down to write this blog post. Goodness knows how many times I’ve blogged about changes. Why can’t I just stick something out?

I’ve realised that the sweet spot between my skills and my passions is creative non-fiction (including, perhaps, working with other authors as a publisher). This is quite a move from children’s fantasy fiction, and involves a change of audience as well.

So is this just me following a shiny new idea because fiction has ‘beaten’ me? Is this just giving up in a blue mushroom disguise?

I hope not.

I only started writing about five years ago. I hadn’t written a word of fiction before that since intermediate school, so I pretty much dived in head first, and everything I’ve published has been in that five year window.

So how on earth could I have expected to know what I wanted from the start? I couldn’t. Of course there were going to be changes! I was writing stories that were personal and creative, playing with zines, testing collaborations – in a word, experimenting.

And what’s the whole point of an experiment? That you don’t know what the outcome will be. It might be to find out if something is true, or to discover something new. After five years of experimenting, I am closer to something that will work for me.

Of course, the experimenting isn’t going to stop. It’s a bit like editing. First, you check the story as a whole – does it make sense? Is it exciting and engaging? Then you get into finer and finer details. At the moment, I’m refining rather than all-out experimenting.

This isn’t me throwing in the towel. It’s evaluating the outcomes of my experiments to create a business that is fulfilling, rewarding, within my skill set (but still challenging), and revolves around something I am incredibly passionate about: the beauty and wonder of our natural world.

And it’s not to say I won’t ever publish fiction again. I have The Train To Nowhere still in the works, and I’m sure there’ll be some more chapter books in my future, too – you can’t get rid of me that easily!

I am not going to see myself as a failure because I am open to change. In the words of Walt Disney: “Progress is impossible without change.” I am a work in progress, and I am proud of my work.

Go forth & experiment.

Abundance Mentality: BOLO

On Writing, Thoughts & Ramblings

I first came across the term ‘abundance mentality’, which is essentially a positive mindset, after seeing an infographic on Facebook, and it’s come up today in an interview with Honoree Corder by Joanna Penn.

The main thing that resonated with me is ‘BOLO’, which means to ‘be on the lookout‘ – for evidence of abundance (of anything), and for people who are doing what you want to be doing. So for me, that’s BOLO for people who are making a full-time living from their writing. For you, it might be something different. As Corder says,”if it’s possible for someone, it’s possible for you”.

The other point is to decide what you’re going to focus on in order to reach your goals – what can you commit to every day – and then actually focus on it. This might be two things. While I was working on the colouring book, I had two daily tasks: draw, and edit. Now, it’s edit Beyond the End of the World, and write my non-fiction book (working title still to come… oops!). What are one or two things that you can commit to every day, that will help you reach your goals?

But enough from me, this is a fantastic interview (and not just for writers). Grab a cuppa, a notebook and a pen – and enjoyย โ˜•