If you’ve been following my posts at all (whether on here or a social network) you’ll know that I’ve made some leaps and bounds in personal growth. I’m more confident in myself and my abilities, I try new things, and I believe I am – and can continue to be – successful.
The last few weeks have been particularly fantastic. Kicking off with the NZ Book Festival where I met some inspiring people, then the New Lynn, Mt Eden & Hospital markets, where I sold a grand total of 31(!) books. On Friday I met with two shops interested in my work, one of whom has ordered a stack of colouring books, and finally the Colour Your Own Adventure exhibition for ArtWeek Auckland.
On top of that, I attended a brilliant seminar on independent publishing from the perspective of the art & design world which left me enthused to start some zines (Wikipedia: “a small circulation self-published work of original or appropriated texts and images usually reproduced via photocopier.”) I’ve decided that this is a better format for me to express my writing journey and learnings than a traditional book, though I may make the zines available for purchase digitally as well.
And just in case that wasn’t enough, the wonder of a person that is Jacqui Be approached me with the idea of an author seminar on mindset and marketing, which I immediately said yes to, and is full steam ahead now. I’m chuffed to be working with Jacqui and so looking forward to sharing my personal mindset shift with other writers (Facebook link: Action Authors).
BUT. The last few weeks I have also felt frustrated, angry, depressed, anxious and upset. I realised yesterday that this is just a side-effect of the personal growth. I am not the person I was five years ago; I’m not even the person I was this time last year! I’m a whole new person now, more true to myself than I ever have been, but I’m finding it hard to adjust and put the ‘new me’ out into the world.
I know it will settle, and I’ll be stable for a while until the next round of personal growth kicks in, but right now I’m struggling to shed my old skin and let the new one shine. I’ll hang in there, and in the meantime, count my blessings 🙂